Xmas is just around the corner. The university is empty again. I had thought that my resistance to loneliness were strong, if I were not immuned to it, since I have been alone for a long time and therefore got used to it. But I am wrong. This weekend I could feel that loneliness was looming large. This morning, SIRC seemed empty. Most people left for holiday. I stayed in the office alone. It seemed that I were the only person in a dead world. Loneliness fell upon me. Someone said that loneliness is that you have no one to talk to when you are in a crowd. Suddenly, I realized that this is not the worst scenario. The worst one is that you are both alone and lonely. I felt restless. I could not sit at the table concentrating on what I was supposed to do. It seemed that I was scared of something. What was I scared of? Hopelessly alone. I wanted to escape. I must immerse myself in a crowd. I could not bear the thought that I am in a empty, dead building alone... ...